Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Princess and the Frog

On this auspicious day (yes, that's Victory Day), I just have one thing to say: Disney's ONLY African American protagonist is the new Princess in 'Princess and the Frog'. But what makes me happy is that she looks more deshi than African American. So Disney finally got it right? I think so. Unless you start questioning why she falls in love with a White Prince, like Conan just did.


Bijoy dibosh'r shubhechha shobai k!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Random thoughts

1.The one hour premier of Scrubs was interesting. You won't believe it, but J.D. and Turk are now teaching! Wasn't paying a whole lot of attention, but if I did, I'm sure I'd have enjoyed it more.

2. Obama's speech on sending more troops to Afghanistan.
With unemployment rates hitting 10.8% everyone's worried, even though the word is that the economy's getting better. Not for everyone, I would say. While Obama's trying to set up programs to tackle the problems he inherited, the war in Afghanistan is overshadowing everything else. At least for now. There's a 50-50 consensus on whether or not more troops should be sent to Afghanistan, but my hunch is, people just want to pull out. No one expected it to take so long. And now people are tired. I am. And I'm not even American.

3. It's interesting how Democrats are the ones who take the heat for increased government spending on social welfare programs when it was Nixon, the paradoxical president, who increased spending on programs like EITC, which, by far, is the most expensive (but effective) anti-poverty program. Also interesting, how he campaigned on law and order and then resigned for his connection with the Watergate scandal.

4. Relationships are funny. All types. What's funnier is that people in the relationship often have very different takes on what goes on in it. That's probably more sad than funny.

5. Everyone's getting swine flu I think. They just don't know it. That's the only thing that's going around. So if you're sick with symptoms like fever, headache, sore throat and the like, you probably have the flu. Fight it with Vitamin C. Don't let it reach the stage where you get a bacterial infection. That can be deadly.

6. Life's short. Live it.

7. I have work to do and I'm procastinating. Why? Beats me. God knows this only hurts me. No one else. Yet, I can't bring myself to get some work done.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Stranger in the mirror

A strand of light landed on my face, forcing me to turn away from it. I'm sensitive to light; it makes me cry. I don't know why that happens. I can't even remember when this started.
But it was too late. Tears rolled down my eyes. Once they roll, I can't stop it anymore. Gulping, I looked around me, the tears forming little droplets on my jacket. A therapist once told me that I am troubled, deep down. Told me that I am essentially very very sad. In a word, depressed. Gave me a couple of tablets to deal with it. I tried it for a while.

Meds for depression was seen as a novel idea when they first entered the social fabric of this nation, this world even. People with mental illness were not destined to end up in Pabna if they were in Bangladesh, or the suburban institutions that housed the physically and mentally ill in the U.S. They were, all of a sudden, allowed to be part of the community, part of real life. I was no different. I was allowed to merge with the crowds, lead a life like everyone else. I wasn't forced to be surrounded by calming white walls. The urban jungle was not seen as an aggravating agent.

Yet, peace eluded me. For a long, long time. And now I am a stranger, even to myself.


(c) Error in Design

Sunday, November 15, 2009

:P

"The latest consumer item to be downsized this recession is breasts." Read more here:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/vanessa-richmond/breasts-shrink-with-econo_b_263721.html

Endowed women are smarter? Says some Chicago scientists:

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/11/12/nation/5092076&sec=nation

nerdy = sexy?

Huff post analysis:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/vanessa-richmond/are-nerdy-girls-sexy-now_b_108056.html

My 2 cents:

Why does everything have to be about feminism and the rights of women. Why do women have to act according to societal norms as portrayed by the media. Not all geeks are ugly - never were. And make up does not necessarily make someone pretty (even though it often can help, a lot). The article talks about the modern day geeks looking like cheerleaders, as if that's a good thing. I wonder when people will just start being them. When WOMEN will start living their lives. Or maybe they do. It's just that they're not written about. We, as a society, like putting people in boxes. We like labels. We pathologize. Ki j hobe.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Checkers

Linking marriage and terrorism - interesting analysis here:
http://www.pickledpolitics.com/archives/6493

And what's up with African American stars? Can they NOT keep negative attention away? OJ, Chris Brown and now Mike Tyson. What's up with that?

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/11/11/mike-tysons-lax-paparazzi_n_354788.html

Speaking of AA, have anyone seen Michael Jackson's movie? I haven't. Want to. Soon. Someone get me a bootleg? :P Just kidding. I'm anti piracy. Well, not really. I don't care.

Fox and Other Animals

'It seems like Obama wants to be his own man when it comes to things in Afghanistan...' says the Fox newscaster. It appears, Obama wants to send more troops to Afghanistan.

I like Obama. But I can't agree that sending off more people to Afghanistan is the answer. I don't support "Support the Troops" stuff, but that's not because I'm anti-Army; I am anti government policies that interefere with the polictics and affairs of other countries. I didn't support US intervention in Rwanda or Sarajevo, and I don't support US intervension in Iraq. Afghanistan made sense, but not like this, not at this cost. And not only because the Afghans continue to suffer, but because everyone does. The US, the Afghans, and everyone involved.

My heart especially goes out to those kids who were dropped off in Afghanistan or Iraq, in the middle off no where at age 19. The kids who form the Army of the United States.

Where did the sudden empathy come from? Perhaps my plane ride to Texas.

I was sitting next to a 23 year old from the Air Force, who just returned from Afghanistan. He said, "I just want to come home, I've had enough", when I asked what he thinks about sending more troops there. He talked about his partner who lost a limb to Soviet landmines still planted across Afghanistan; he talked about an Afghan dwarf who sells trinkets right next to their base; he told me about the 13 year old boy who was married to multiple women in a village in Afghanistan. He showed me pictures of the dwarf, the boy, and himself in uniform. He showed me pictures of Afghanistan that he had taken from a copter. And my heart went out to him. At age 23, he has seen much more than he should have. He said, 'I feel bad when people support the bombing of army personnel in Afghanistan or Iraq. That means they want me to die'. I tried explaining that it was government policy that people were against, it was not them. I tried to explain to him how it was unfair that the people who were sending them off to war were not sending their own children off. I tried to get him to think about himself, not the country. And his maturity amazed me. I was getting upset by the injustice of it all, but he was calm. He smiled, and he said I didn't look as old as I was.

It was a long flight, but it flew by quickly. And at the end of it all, I was humbled, and sad. That 23 year old is just a few years older than my own brother, and I can't imagine sending him off to war. And yet there he was, forced to take on responsibility for himself and his country.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

crisis pains and rants

The crisis on infinite earths in 1985 was great because of its pioneer values. "Worlds will live, worlds will die, and the universe will never be the same". Hell of a line. Then came the entire Infinite crisis mega event in 2006 and that wasn't too bad. it was very good infact, especially the way the story was built up in all the DC titles over the preceding year, which got an explosive start with 'identity crisis", my all time favorite "event". Then came Final crisis, written by Grant Morrisson. Well Grant, you did exactly what i was afraid you would do. Take a huge universe affectiong story and fuck it up with bad story telling. I have not yet finished reading the 7 issue series, will start reading the last part infact, but the only issue i have liked so far is DC Universe Zero, which Grant co-wrote with Geoff Johns (my hero!!). Grant always has trouble with large scale stories. I noticed it in his JLA days, but there he had only around 7 characters to deal with and so succeeded in telling some good stories. But with crisis, his weaknesses shine out like the light from the green lantern power battery. Characters come and go without explanation, events happen which don't make sense, the story shifts from one focus to another without any link -- its all rubbish. Its very sad really, because Grant is a great writer. He should have just worked on the basic story and let Johns handle the breakdown and actually dialogues. For example, Johns wrote the accompanying story for Final Crisis -- Legion of 3 worlds. It has hundreds of characters, multiple planets and timelines and yet IT ALL MAKES SENSE. I am LOVING this storyline. All the incarnations of the legion come together to kick superman-prime'r butt and alnog the way we are treated to amazing moments and revelations, just like the Sinestro Corps War.


Geoff Johns, you da man. Grant Morrison, go back to writing single character books.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Conan and I, and other stories

Conan O'Brien is growing on me. And I think he's definitely going to end up apologizing to former Pres Clinton for his comments about how in the year 3000 he will go to a N.Korean massage parlor to discuss his release after negotiating the release of two female journalists :P And I also think his take on the Clunkers for Cash program is hilarious. Even better is HIS version of the program! The guy wants to find the worst car in America and give the owner a Lexus hybrid! He may not be a genius, but he tries, and in my books, that's good enough. Plus, genius is overrated. And in our country, it's over-overrated. Seriously, how many times did you hear that the 'first boy/girl' in your class was a genius? Probably all through your school life. But is s/he REALLY a genius? Afraid not. They turned out to be just like everyone else, methinks (if not worse). Not their fault. Bangladeshi school systems are proponents of 'mukhosto biddai shokol bidda', and anyone who manages to memorize pages and pages of textbook print end up being 'brilliant students'. Someone pointed out to me how this promotes plagiarism and wards off original thought and creativity. All I can say is, I completely agree.


I also wonder why are the Jonas Brothers so popular. Is it because people generally like to have idols to look up to? Or are they genuinely good musicians? They're on Conan and they seem like nice kids, but given how much clout they have, I wonder if they realize how they can shape the mindset of the young ones that idolize them. But then, they're probably too young to take responsibily for anything. Or too dumb.

Good day for Hispanics, today. I'm indifferent, but I see that many people are elated. Interesting is how both Obama and Sonia (yes, I'm on first name basis with them) have similar backgrounds, and how they worked hard to get on top. Hard work really pays off, appears to be the message that they're sending out (whoever they are). But I think people also need luck. Hard work and a little bit of luck = the magic formula for success. So, good luck to everyone who's reading this, and myself :)

Till later, be good.

Friday, July 31, 2009

9 simple things that women want (from yahoo!)

Besides the meaning of life and the ingredients of hot dogs, many a man has questioned, "What exactly do women want?" We're not playing coy here, we know we're complex creatures. And, true, we operate on a different wavelength than men.
But women aren't exactly the great mystery that men often make us out to be. The proof? We polled the YourTango staff and compiled a list of 9 simple things women want. Note: you won't find diamond rings or other fancy things anywhere on this list. While many women really do want luxury goods from men, when you break it down they are just physical representations of some of the points on this list. We promise.

1. Respect. Show us through your actions that you respect our opinions, careers, interests, friends, bodies, and minds. You don't have to agree with all that we say or do, but try to honor our opinions as valuable contributions. Follow the golden rule and treat us as you would like to be treated: Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate.
2. Romance. It's another night on the couch with takeout and TiVo? Just because we're staying in doesn't mean the evening can't be romantic. Light a few candles and see where the night leads. Treat us like your girlfriend, even after we become your wife. Date nights, physical affection in the car, kissing like when we first started dating -- all of the things that made us fall in love with you don't have to stop just because now there are bills to pay, a house to be cleaned, and kids to be bathed. Bring home flowers for no reason. We're not talking $100 bouquets of roses here. Even the $10 bouquets from the supermarket are enough to make us smile.
3. Time. We understand relationships can't be all wine and roses; simply making the time to be with us and treating us like your top priority says "love" more than all the fancy gifts and lovely letters ever could. This includes helping around the house. The realities of a 21st-century relationship are that both partners probably work. If you happen to get home before we do, why not vacuum the living room or throw in a load of laundry? If you take the garbage out without being asked, chances are you'll be getting a big ole smooch when you come back.
4. Dinner. Of the homemade variety. You may not be good at cooking and you may not know how to boil water. But greeting us at the door after a long day with fish sticks (or whatever you can wrastle up) makes us swoon, because it shows that you've been thinking about us and our hectic day.
5. Communication. Women are vocal creatures. We know you love us, but it's nice to hear you say it, too. We can also be insecure. We wish we weren't, but the reality is that we often notice our wobbly thighs and forget about our gorgeous eyes. So let us know when you think we're hot. Tell us we're beautiful. It helps us feel good. Words of appreciation aren't half-bad either. Tell us you love the lasagna we made. Notice that we cleaned the bathtub. It doesn't have to be over the top, just let us know that you see the effort we put in, and you're grateful.
6. Consistency. This doesn't mean be boring and predictable. It means that we know you will (usually -- no one is perfect!) give us the love and support we need. Knowing that you're coming at this with the same desires and energy as we are goes a long way to making us feel secure.
7. Engagement. Of the mental kind, not the "I'm getting married in the morning" kind. You don't have to like everything we like (we might be a little concerned if you do), but showing interest in our passions, be it career-related, a sport, or a hobby, goes a long way. Listen when we talk to you. We're not speaking just so we can hear our own voice; we want to connect with you and this is one valuable way we do this. This also means paying attention to the little things. Whether it's the name of your best friend's husband or the fact that you hate Nicolas Cage movies, it's the little things you remember about us that's so endearing.
8. Humor and Humility. These two tend to go hand in hand. This doesn't mean that you have to crack jokes or entertain us, but just being able to laugh at yourself is enough. Guys who take themselves too seriously bring everyone down.
9. Challenge. Not the kind that makes a relationship constant work, but the good kind that surprises and motivates us to do, be, or achieve what we desire. Studies show that partners who prod each other to meet goals -- in other words, don't support lazy or bad habits -- are ultimately happier than those who don't hold each other accountable.


[Believe me, I know what I'm risking by putting this here. Go ahead, ridicule me, but don't tell me it didn't help you out, even if it's just a teeeeny weeeeny bit. Ok, now that sounds girly. Let me just stop :)]

Ajaira pechal

I can safely say that my favorite topic of conversation is: relationships, and by that I don't mean just romantic relationships. I often wonder what about them intrigues me, and I may have an answer - it is the different ways in which relationships are manifested; the fact that no two relationships are the same is what makes them special and interesting.

My friend from college, let's call her Mimi, started dating very early. In her mid teens, almost. A decade later she married her teen love. Now they have two kids. But the most interesting thing about their relationship was how they interacted in the presence of their significant other, and the absence of the significant other. When alone, she was confident, she took charge of things, she knew exactly what she wanted... but when he was with her, a transformation took place. She allowed him to be in charge, she almost took shelter in his arms, while he made the decisions. If she wanted something, she would tell him and he would take care of it. It was like her own little fairy tale, in which she was the princess, and he was her charming prince.

This slice of cake can be dissected in many ways. One way is very likely to be: the role of society and societal norms that people adhere to, and the role of patriarchy and tradition. Relatedly, the role of the media and fairy tales in determining how men and women in society should function together, which again shapes individual behavior is another way to look at it. Yet, another way to dissect it is by trying to understand behavior patterns among men and women, and their expectations from each other in different kinds of settings. In a romantic relationship, for example, the expectations are far different than it would be in a friendship. However, does gender change the dynamics of that friendship? People are often heard saying that men and women cannot 'just be friends'. While most women disagree, I find that men tend to agree with this. My take is on that is: men find it difficult to 'just be friends', while women are more at ease with it. In my experience, it's usually men who ruin male - female friendships by 'falling in love with the 'friend'.

I was talking to a friend of mine today about marriage. He claims that every 1 in 3 couples he knows are unhappy, and hence he thinks marriage is a bad idea. That led to a conversation about what women want from men, and vice versa. We managed to figure out that for men, sex was the 'polao', and additional emotional connection and love was the 'beresta' on top. For women, the sex was the 'beresta', and the emotional connection, the togetherness, being in love and so on, was the 'polao'. The question, ultimately was, ff such is the case, how do marriages survive? Most don't, we concluded. And the couples that survive love polao just as much as they love the beresta. Or they lie about it.

Alright, enough bakwas. Time to get to work.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

shut it

Just recently i found out one more difference between the great cricket players and the good ones. The great ones don't talk nonsense. Ever. Case in point, Brett Lee, Hoggard and Flintoff. These three are some of the best players in the world today, although I'm not sure if Hoggard's still active or not. They've all done good work for their country, have stepped up to the plate and taken responsibility when it was required, especially Lee and Flintoff. But none of these are "great" players, and Hoggard will never be. And these three also happen to be 3 of my most favorite players. But all 3 have said things about their captains, Hoggard most recently, that's pissed me off. Michael Vaughn retired from cricket recently and obviously all the current players gushed about him as he was one of their most successful captains. Part of the gushing by Hoggard was that he compared Vaughn's captaincy with that of Nasser Hussain and maintained he preferred playing under Vaughn because he was such a nice guy on the field. Well fuck you Hoggard. We all remember what pathetic whiners English cricketers were in the nineties. And what pathetic losers they were, blaming everything else for their miserable performance except their lack of ability.

I always liked Hussain and when he took over the captaincy he knew he had to whip this sorry team into a fighting unit, and you can't do that by being a "nice guy" and holding hands and spouting soothing words and being sensitive to one's feelings. For the first time EVER, Hussain's England looked like they meant business. He picked youngsters like Hoggard and Flintoff and egged them on to the job along with his veteran bowlers Gough and Caddick. So he was a bit harsh on the field when you bowled rubbish, was he? Maybe that's why you learned the discipline required to win the ashes. Maybe that's why you guys suddenly went from complete losers to one of the most exciting Test teams to follow, you lousy uneducated trout!

Then there's the other 2 mighty intellects, Lee and Flintoff. Both said similar things when comparing their former captains to their current ones. They preferred playing under the current captain because under the current captain they had "more responsibility and a clear idea of what was required of them". Well whoop de do! Have you two stopped to consider that under your previous captains (Steve Waugh and Nasser Hussain) you guys were fresh lilies with little idea of how to take a wicket? To hear Flintoff and Lee talk, you'd think they appeared on the international scene as the accomplished players they are today. Whereas we who have viewed the game from a more objective point remember that Lee could just bowl fast and Flintoff could just bowl short of a length at medium pace. And it was through being under great captains like Waugh and Hussain that they blossomed. So that by the time they came under Ponting and Vaughn they ahd honed their craft to the point that the captain could give them proper responsibility and tell them exactly what was expected of them.

Bloody idiots. You never hear McGrath talking about oh how wonderful it was under Taylor, do you? Or Warne?

Fucking retards. Just shut it!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Little Feet Muffet

Is as sick as a bird. But no, it's not bird flu, thank God. Or any other kind of animal flu. 

Travels have been planned. Life has been put on hold. The weather's been accommodating. What else could I want? Better grades. But we can't have it all.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Travelling Back. And Forth.

Travel back to earlier decades by browsing through old newspapers and journal articles. Nothing more fascinating than figuring out the trajectory of things on your own. Sometimes you may wonder if this is the time you should've been born in, but I think mostly you'll realize how long we've come, and more importantly, how long the rest of the way is.

But while you're at it, don't forget to live the life you have now. We're here because we're meant to be here. And even if we were not meant to be here, the fact that we ARE here must count for -something-. I hope.

Edit: I know this sounds very blah, and perhaps even cliched but bear with me. Just a while longer.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

time is a machine

My keyboard is messed up. It sounds like a typewriter when I type. All because of the ajaira lok who spilled MY drink on MY laptop. Talk about double jeopardy. Okay, maybe not the best application of the word, but cut me some slack, folks. I have competition. SB is on a roll, churning out random write ups like its free. Which it is, actually. But who get the gist.

I've been meaning to comment on a news report I read on bullying, analyse a certain Obama policy that I'm in favor of and mildy throw some chicken feed on swine flu, preferably separately, but since these will soon (in about an hour) become old news, I am having to briefly round up my thoughts.

Obama's policy: of releasing the 'torture' documents from the past administration's treatment of its alleged terrorists
Critism so far: the degradation of the Muslims and others will spur Anti American sentiment (as if it can get any worse than it did during Bush's regime)
I completely disagree with the critisim. I think, on the contrary, it sends a message to the world about Obama's transparency, and resolve to do what is right. He really is speaking to people like you (yes, you) and me here. We want to know the truth. It will make us angry, yes, but Obama is giving us the opportunity to be angry. Without this revelation, we would have been blissfully unaware. Us being angry is what some people are worried about, and perhaps some of that worry is justified, some of our Muslim brothers have not shown a great deal of level headedness in the past. But Obama has. He's a good thinker, he knows what's right, he can identify a touch situation and then, most importantly, he can remain cool headed at the same time. He really IS the savior of this nation of United States. And by allowing us to see what went wrong, he is really opening up the door to open, transparent communication.

At the same time, there is (as there should be) a political motive. He had to take heat for abolishing torture of war criminals and alleged criminals in custody. By revealing these documents, the nation gets to see what exactly he is abolishing. And the people have that right. A right that the former administration had taken away from the people, in the name of 'national security'. You have to realize, criticizing the former President was deemed 'unpatriotic' as Paul Krugman points out, and people just could do nothing about it. Bush had the 8 years he wanted to turn the budget surplus into a huge deficit and to completely destroy the financial sector on the domestic front and wage two horrendously failed wars internationally.

But, I digress.

My entire point may seem like: Yay for Obama and Down with Bush! But it really isn't. It's about human rights. And how it was taken away. Now that we have a chance of getting it back, the neocons are going crazy.

On to my other area of interest: bullying.

Kids often do things that they don't realize. Sometimes, they do. My friend was talking abour her daughter who already had a preference for friends who were White and who had blond hair like mommy, who gets frustrated with her friend who is autistic and ends up hitting her to get her to talk, which she never does. My friend told me because she as worried. She didn't want her daughter to be a bully, to pick on the minority. Because when she starts school, there will be people who are different from her, and her mother, and that differnce will be the basis of bullying.

The story I posted on fb earlier, about the 11 year old boy who commited suicide when he couldn't take the bullying in school anymore, I thought of my school, my friends. There weren't overt bullies that I can remember, but there were kids who were dominating, who would create problems for people who didn't conform to their 'style' by alienating them, shunning them, not inviting them to their birthday parties. All these little things to make people feel bad, they start from an early age, that mean streak, very obvious, untainted by social norms that dictate manners. Now, a dozen or so years later, I think about where they are. And I frankly don't know. They haven't become the starlets that they promised to be, they haven't gone on to become leaders of the new generation, they haven't really done much. They just had bullying tendencies when they were in school. That's the highlight of their lives. If you ask them, maybe it was the best time of their lives. Which brings me to: why do they do it? Various theories identify bullying among children: unrest at home, insecurities, mimicking what they see elsewhere and so on. But the more important question is: how do you stop it? As someone said, for children their problems are as big as ours, and when grown ups marginalize them, they feel just as bad as we do when our problems are marginalized. And this 11 year old boy's story exemplifies that. Only that his mother did try. But she really couldn't help him. The school failed him. The system failed him. May he rest in piece.

Swine flu: go away. Come again another day. Little Johnny wants to play. Joking. Don't come back. Just go! Sounds like it's the same thing as the bird flu. Killed dozens of people in New Mexico. Maybe 7 people in NYC has it (test results are due tomorrow) but it hasn't killed anyone in NYC yet. Suspecting it in Texas as well. Details are unclear (to me, atleast). Maybe it's a pandemic. But whatever it is, I'm glad I don't eat chicken. My suggestion: cook your chicken really well. Or just don't eat it. Don't die for chicken. And there's a med for it, in case you get it. So if you get it, don't panic. Help is out there.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

a few good men (& women)

And the arguments rage on. Are we born evil? Or do we become evil? Is whoever i am supposed to be when i grow up written in my genes? Or is it something i learn from my parents and my school and the place i grow up in? I don't know. I do believe in leaders being born and not made though. That tendency to assume control, to make others feel safe in the knowledge that you will take care of everything, that you know whats best -- i think this is something you're born with. 


I have had a great childhood and my parents are the best parents in the world. They never forced me to learn anything but rather encouraged me to be a certain way and follow certain pursuits. But i only followed those pursuits that caught my fancy. As a result i never enrolled in music school, i never did serious sports, and i was never good at my studies. I did however enjoy computer games, books and comics, movies and acting. And these pursuits i followed. I also enjoyed free-style singing (much to the anguish of those near me) and as a result i have my own band. And from a very early age, i was never the leader type. I was content to let other people lead and the most i would do is give advice when necessary. And it worked out pretty great. Because i disliked the extra pressure and attention that inevitably comes with assuming leadership in any endeavor. 


But i always had strong opinions, and always liked to go deep into whatever i was supposed to be doing. i never liked just leaving it to someone to do something. And that happened because i felt that i knew better, or that i knew at least as much the other person. Or maybe i had better judgement ability. Ego? Surely. Warranted? Maybe. So as the years went by i went on to become a creative director, essentially in charge of leading a team of creative people to formulate communication materials for our clients (in other words, ad campaigns). And i also slowly became the leader of the band. This is not a discourse about my achievements however. My point is that as a child and in school, i exhibited no leadership qualities whatsoever. But when i grew up and life was thrust upon me, i became a leader. Not a very good one, but a leader none the less. So i continue to believe that leaders are born. Not made.


So what about good? Are we born with goodness? And then become evil? Or are we born either good or evil and then live our lives accordingly? I have been blessed in life by having a wonderful family, being in a wonderful school and making wonderful friends. From a very early age i was aware my father was a freedom fighter and i knew fighting for freedom was right and good, andthat's something that always inspired me. Plus i grew up in an environment of love both at home and in school so that must have affected my growing up. And for whatever reason from a very early age, i became a fan of heroes. From comics to books, i devoured all the heroic stories out there. From Superman to Tarzan to Sherlock Holmes to Lord of the Rings to Prophet Mohammad, i couldn't get enough of heroic fables. And it left a deep imprint. Plus i had a my father who has great ethical and moral fortitude. He never preached to me but just being around him and seeing him lead his life ingrained in me those values of right and wrong that are so important in life.


In the last 10 years or so, i have experienced a lot of things and have met a lot of people. And most of them are good people. I think i automatically gravitate towards people who are essentially good at heart, people you can depend on, people who will be there for you. And i have also met people who are not really very close friends of mine, but who have repeatedly gone out of their way to be helpful. And on those occasions i have often wondered, why is this person doing this? Why is he wasting his time at this unearthly hour to help me? What's in it for him? Or her for that matter. And one time i asked a friend of mine this particular question. This friend i am talking about is not a close friend. He's one of my "friend in need" as in i get in touch when i need him. And he always helps out. So one day when he was helping me out i asked him, "why do you do this?" and at first he didn't understand the question. So i explained to him, "why do you help people so much? whats in it for you?" And he still didn't understand the question. When i finally managed to clear up what i wanted to know, he smiled and said, "i like making people happy. I love the look on their faces when i can fix something for them". And i still persisted. i said that cannot be the only reason. After a lot of badgering he finally replied that when he was younger he needed help from someone and that someone let him down. And he was so upset at being let down that he decided that he would never make someone else feel this upset. Not if he could help it. 


I laughed at hearing this. In his time of need someone let him down, and that provoked a resolve that he would never let someone down! Its like a bloody comic book origin of a superhero! I mean, the normal response at an event like this would be bitterness and an attitude of indifference at helping others. But no, in my friend's case, it was the opposite. And that's when i understood. Or maybe that's when i caught a glimmer of the beginning of understanding why good people do good deeds. Its because they don't know any better


Being good is like being in love. You see a nice girl and you are attracted and then you you fall in love. Perfectly straightforward. And then when someone asks you why or how you fell in love you say 50 things like, oh she's so beautiful, she's so funny and warm, she gets along so well with my friends, she lets me be myself etc etc etc. But really, think about it. Its all rationalization after the fact. You fall in love first, and then you invent all these reasons to make your falling in lovewith that person sound all logical and reasonable. I mean, you can't think i just fell in love for no reason, did you? No! I am an intelligent and reasonable person and these are the reasons why i love this girl. Hah! Right. That sounds as perfectly logical as the explanation my good friend offered about him being let down when he needed help and then deciding that he would never let anyone else down. I don't believe my friend would have been a different person even if that other person didn't let him down. I think then the story would have been, "i needed help and this friend of mine helped me out and thus i decided that i would help other people from this day henceforth". Its rationalization after the fact. 


So yeah, at this moment in time, i believe good people are born and not made. Somewhere down the line, life happens and a lot of extraneous things get attached to the good personality that a good person is born with. He may enter government service and take bribes. He may cheat in his school exams. He may have a sharp tongue and be insensitive. But i believe that all these things can't hide the core goodness that a good person possesses. In times of need, that core shines out like a beacon. He sacrifices his own time, happiness, and peace of mind to help. And these people are out there. In droves. I know because i have met them. People busy running the rat race and people you would never think would help you at their own expense. But they do. And when they do, they do it simply because that's who they are. They don't calculate the odds. They don't think how its beneficial to them in the long run. They just help because they can't think otherwise. Its like you have to drink water when you're thirsty. So do good people have to help when someone asks them to. 


So this one is for all the people out there who have ever helped out a friend or a stranger. You are the best of us. And to the rest of us, may we also have the strength of character to say "yes,I'll help" when the time comes. 

Friday, April 24, 2009

the greatest story ever shown

I don't know about you, but i'm a huge fan of the classics. I'm not talking about those pansy penguin classics from the 18th and 19th century. I'm talking about the real stuff. Legends. Myths. Stories that have survived and thrived across generations through hundreds of years. I'm talking Illiyad, Odyssy, Ramayana, Mahabharata, Arabian Nights. All those stories of Gods and Mortals and events big and small that touch us all. And its really easy to see why these stories have survived the ravages of time. And not only survived, but have grown in stature. Have inspired us. Its because at the heart these stories deal with the hopes, dreams, aspirations of all of us, no matter what race or religion or nationality. If you are human, you will connect to these fables. 

And it is with the full meaning of the term classic as i have just defined, i call the Battlestar Galactica mini series a Classic. Thats right. A science fiction TV series that dared to do it all. Dared to take us out to space in a distant galaxy. Dared to make fictional characters as real as you and me. Dared to take us to the edge of sanity, and then bring us right back. Because the makers of this monumental series knew that to make a great story, you have to follow the rules. Great Heroism. Dastardly Villiany. And a story thats bigger than all of that, and yet with all the little touches that make us go, "oh i know how that feels!". Hats off to all the makers, all the people involved. You did an amazing job.

The story is simple really. And thats how all great stories are at the end of the day -- simple. Its about a war between sentient robots and their creators the humans. But these humans live far, far away from our galaxy in a colony of 12 planets which are named after the horroscopes. The robots rebel and wage war on their human creators, decimating the entire human race in the process, save a handfull of survivors. Around 47,000 people i think when the mini series starts. These survivors gather around the last remaining warship called Battlestar Galactica and try to escape the robots and find a new home. 

The story throughout is electrifying and totally counter-intuitive. Whenever you think you've got something figured out, they throw a twist at your face which punches you across the room. Not gentle shakespearean twists these. Very very vicious, and very very emotional. You will laugh, you will cry, you will weep with joy with the characters of this epic series. For it is truly an epic. 

I honestly don't have the words to describe what the makers of this series and the actors have pulled off. I wish i could give some examples but anything i say will take that little bit away from you enjoying the series when you watch it. Because everything little thing is important. So all i'll say is that i am lucky to have been alive when this series first aired. It has truly inspired me and i wish all the people involved with this miracle the best of luck in all their future engagements.

To everyone else, watch Battlestar Galactica. Its simply totally awesome. 

Sunday, April 19, 2009

lights, camera, monpura

My friend got me a ticket to Monpura, the movie by Gias uddin Selim. There was a special showing of the movie in Gulshan Club (ooh how hoity toity eh?) and my friend is a member so she got all of us tickets. I had never been to Gulshan Club to see a movie before and i was expecting a glorified hall room with a projector screen and uncomfortable chairs. So you can understand my surprise when i walked into a two tiered genuine movie theater! Its amazing! Real theater, comfortable seats, and they even had a snack shop!! It was perfect! and then the movie started. 

Let me just back track a bit and tell you of my previous experiences with recent Bangladeshi films. I have watched Joyjatra, Ontorjatra and Made in Bangladesh and they were all woefully pathetic. Especially the "jatra" movies. Its ironic that they have the word "jatra" in the title because jatra means journey and both movies went nowhere. Made in Bangladesh did provide moments of entertainment and the actors did a terrific job. Plus the subject matter of the movie was also very modern and timely. But as a movie it didn't work. Movies like, all art mediums, have their own language. And the directors of Bangladesh just don't get that language. So i wasn't expecting much when i went to watch Monpura. Even though Gias Uddin Selim is one of the best storytellers in the drama circle in Bangladesh. Being a good Drama writer/director and making a good movie are 2 different things.

So the movie started. And i was impressed. the movie continued. i kept liking it. The movie ended and i felt finally i had seen a real movie made by a Bangladeshi film maker. I'm not going to criticise this movie because its a first effort from the director and there are some obvious problems, like the pacing and the story itself. I want to focus on the positives. And the biggest positive was that he story telling came through. Selim is a gifted storyteller and he made a very decent film in the context of Bangladesh and everything that goes with releasing a decent commercial film in this market. The characters were believable, the dialogues were crisp and meaningful, the sequences progressed the story, it was good stuff. There was a clear hero, a clear villain, a clear goal. This is a little trick that all the other film makers here forget. People need a clear hero and a villain. And they need larger than life moments, be it romantic, tragic, or comic. And Selim got that. And the result was a very entertaining film that really touched something in me. And that's saying a lot if you happen to know me and my high falutin' opinionated self. 

Another thing I liked was the portrayal of the villain as a real person, and not some cackling hollywood/FDC goon. Villains have excellent motivations and reasons for doing what they do. They know they're doing something wrong, but they also know that they need to do it. They don't do evil for the sake of being evil. They do things because they believe its their right. Just as you or i would believe whatever we do is right. I really appreciated the three dimensional treatment of the villain in this movie. 

In short, i was inspired. And i felt proud of Gias uddin Selim. Good job, sir!

Everyone, please go watch this movie. Its worth your time. 

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Orange clothes and Leno humor

Jay Leno is rarely funny, but this one was good.

July 1, 1996 - Hotmail was opened.
The next day: The inbox was full of emails from African princes who wanted to share their money with you, and penis enlargement gimmicks.

Some people may not find it funny, I am aware of that. But I'm not a big fan of 'katu kutu diye hashano'. Same reason I could never really find kalo comedians too funny. They have no relevance in real life. At least, mine. Leno, on the other hand, and most other late night show hosts talk about the real deal, stuff that's going on in the real world. It's what we would call contextual comedy if you want to call it comedy. And THAT is why it's funny. Give me all kinds of humor other than the slapstick underarm tickling kind.

It wasn't, however, my intention to talk about my pet peeve(s).

I wanted to talk about the monk with whom I had a very controvertial conversation about how we should continue to maintain the food chain by consuming meat, while he argued about how the meat processing industry costs the environment by releasing green house gases. But that's only in the Western world where they don't slaughter their cows in their own backyards, I reminded him. He also said he thinks if people did raise the cattle they ate, they wouldn't really be able to kill them because of the connection they'd be making with them. I told him that I watched chicken being slaughtered as a child and it never affected me. But what did get to me was this - chicken (and beef) apparently sits in our stomachs for days before being completley digested. That's what my mother had told me. That it's released from the body once it rots. I found it disgusting. I now only eat tuna burgers and tuna sandwiches. So in principle I had no point, but in reality I did.

This argument was of course after the monk cooked for us and showed us how to make a vegetarian dish - which was actually really good. I had two plates of it :S And I didn't mind that he was a good looking monk, even though he wore the orange garb and the strings and beads around his neck. Does that make me a nimok haram? I wonder. Gay, maybe, but not nimok haram, right?

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

the bad, the fat, the ugly

Considering that anyone can term me as any of the above, it may confuse people as to why I'm writing about any of that. Some people may squirm because inwardly they agree with me, but to my face they will say nothing. To them, I shall say nothing as well. Because, simply, I don't know who they are.

Fortunately for me, no one knows who I am either. Okay, slight exaggeration, that. Maybe about 5 people know who I am. And that makes me happy. Welcome to my life. But sorry, there's no open window through which you can look in. No peeping holes either. I could pull a George (or Kramer) and take out the peep hole and then replace it backwards, but that serves no purpose in my life, and we all know that I'm a selfish, self centered bugger.

And for those of you who are wondering where all this angst is coming from. It's been there all along. You just didn't see it.

Which brings me to: Did you see how lucky the Afghan men are? They are entitled to sex every three days!! Unless they're traveling, in which case they are entitled to have sex with random people they meet and find irresistible. But ONLY if they find them irresistible. Imagine that in Bangladesh. Or just Dhaka. We'd have one big happy family. The US picked Karzai turned out to be quite a charmer, eh? I personally think his motivations are strictly personal. He's not really looking into releasing the frustrations of Afghan men. He's interested in his own. And given how hot these Afghani women are, can you really blame him? He probably finds the entire female population of Afghanistan 'irresistible'. Including the American soldiers. Who, by now, really are de facto Afghans. Like it or not. Someone should inform them, methinks.

My diet. Is going very well. I am still twixing my way through papers and I discovered the best smoked salmon sandwich (EVER, would say my fat friend) in this city. It's mass produced but man made. Not the salmon. The sandwich. I wish I knew why I was hungry all the time. And I do mean all the time. It's bloody depressing. I just walked for an hour an a half to keep myself away from food. But when CA called me to hang before she ran off to her meeting, I said, wtf let me just get a bite. Just for company's sake. She can't be eating on her own, can she? (Not that I asked her).

I bought a weighing machine. But I was 15 mins late to pick it up, so it'll have to weight till tomorrow. Er wait. My weight is what I don't really want to know but my mother tells me that's the best way to lose weight. By measuring it every single day.

Moral of today's post (just in case you didn't quite catch it): Even FAT UGLY BAD AFGHAN MEN ARE ENTITLED TO SEX and in the US they have abstinence only programs that encourage people to NOT have SEX (which is another post for another day, made more interesting by the fact that my co blogger and I are at complete odds. Why give condoms to 14 year olds? he says. THey're too young to be even having sex. I agree. BUT. They ARE having sex. So we need to deal with it. Telling them to not have sex is not going to change it. Overauling the value system is a good idea, one that Bush tried, for example. But as I said, another post for another day). And the FUNNIEST TAKE on THAT issue is: we have the conservative afghans fighting for their right to NOT have sex while the Americans fight for their right to HAVE sex.
Amader ei tao dekhte holo! So much for it being a personal, private issue. So much for the government deciding what you do on your bed. In your bedroom (preferably).

Friday, March 20, 2009

Warning: Sappy Post

What's the difference between being content and being happy?

Can someone be happy without being in a relationship (the intimate kind)?

People-dependent happiness is risky, so for those of you (or us) who like to be risk averse, is it best to not rely on people at all?

Would that mean that I don't care?

Should we move on with life when life gets better, and wait out the bad times? Or do we do what we need to do, or what we think we need to do while we're waiting?

A friend said to me y'day: Life is a bitch. And then it's over. To me, that sounds a bit too negative. I am still hoping that my life would be perfect one day. I'm not sitting around waiting for it, and my life isn't completely in the gutter. Actually, there are some good things going on. So the question is, should I just settle and be happy with this? Provided that I -am- happy with this, does this mean I will not reach higher levels of happiness? What is happiness, anyway?

Okay I told you this would be sappy, or what I consider sappy. And they're mostly rhetorical questions to which I already know the answers (other than the q about happiness, anyone who knows what happiness is, let me know). Which reminds me, I read a definition of rhetorics the other day which is different from what we know to be rhetorical, and with that I shall end this post: persuasive discourse within and between interpretive communities.

Haha, I know, and I'm sorry.


3 holes and 1 love (or maybe 2)

My new love is for: binders. I live by them. Okay, not completely, but close enough. Without binders I would have been in complete disarray. But what I'm still missing is a 3-hole-puncher. They have this gorgeous one at the labs. All you have to do is plug the machine in to the wall (yes, it's electronic!), stick your pile of papers into a slit and hit a button. That is all. How I wish someone would gift me one of those things. Well, actually I can just buy one of those. I'm sure it's cheap on Amazon or something.

I also realized something quite profound. And that is I'm afraid of water bodies. I never used to be. Funnier still is that I realized this when looking at the world on google maps. YES, I know it's dumb, thank you very much. But I had to quickly close it, when the oceans came into view. At first, I didn't like the look of the Hudson River as I tried to follow its path to see where it leads to. And then when I zoomed out, the entire world came into view. It was when I moved continents, that I had to quickly close out. All that blue was suffocating me. Too bad blue's my favorite color. I guess not so much anymore. But I still like blue shirts. Generic taste, I have. But I look good in blue. Or so I like to believe. Reds too. But everyone looks good in red. My best friend in college used to claim I looked good in purple. Purple! I don't know anyone who actually looks good in purple. And if they do look good in purple, it has nothing to do with purple. Red, I think, changes you. So does brown, but in a bad way. I own a brown clingy tshirt which I like, but I look browner in it. It's like white people wearing white - they look too uniform to look good. Especially when they have straw blonde hair. And wear white pants with it.

I also love calculators. I'm glad they were invented. I'm sure I'm not the only one. I know someone who's failing undergrad math, which I would have thought is difficult to do at this age, but no, it's not. In fact it's harder. And I say that only because I'm done with it. If I weren't, I'd probably be too proud to admit that undergrad is difficult business.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Bush and Dick, Sitting on a Tree

If I were a girl, I would never sleep with Cheney. For one, he's White. And White men look good only in the dark. And secondly, every time he opens his mouth I feel like stuffing it with shit. Pure, deshi, brown shit. It would do him some good, I reckon. Not that I want any good to happen to him (not to curse him with bad luck for the rest of his life). And my latest outburst comes because he disagrees with Bush. Yes, you read right, no need to go back and read that sentence again. Let me explain. How many of you remember Libby? No one? How about the guy who was convicted of blowing the cover of a CIA agent whose husband was anti Iraq war? Yes, I thought so. Well, as it turns out, Cheney Shaheb wanted dodo headed Bush to pardon him during his last days in office. Why? Because Libby was Cheney's Chief of Staff. But Bush didn't. Yes, I know. Even I was surprised. However, get this: Cheney still dissapproves of G-Bay withdrawals and humane treatment of terrorist suspects, just like Bush. What a Dick, you say? So did his mother. The day he was born.

What I fail to understand is, though, how could America put Dick and Bush in the White House? Just that combination of names should've been enough to vote them out, I would think. But, oh well.

And that relationship advice? Coming up shortly. Can you tell I'm procastinating?

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Twix and Arizona Iced Tea

I would never write about relationships - that's just not my forte - but I'm compelled to right now, because I am at a loss. I've managed to argue and rant about everything (well, almost) my entire life but this is where I get stuck. Not because I don't have experience, but but because my experiences are so divergent that I cannot compare and contrast. And I never have. No, never. I don't compare current partners with former ones. In any way. What's gone is gone, and it's better that way - that is what I believe in. Not that many people believe me. And those who do probably do it to shut me up. But that's how it is. So between munching on Twix (yes, the chocolate bar and no, I'm not a girl), and gulping down cheap Arizona Iced Tea (the half mango - half tea stuff isn't bad, really) I'm trying to find out what the converging and diverging issues are of those who lost jobs during the mass shutdown of steel mills during Roosevelts' regime, or was it Reagan? One of the Republicans. So now you know I'm really not paying attention to what I'm reading.

And I just remembered - I have a bunch of things to do, things that I had completely forgotten about. So my take on relationships (which I was being compelled to write about) has to wait. Let me grab another chocolate bar, first. So much for compulsions.

TypeCasted

In previous posts I had discussed the Bengali fixation on being fair (and thus lovely) and how the advent of white makeup in addition to Filipino magic hands (that promise to make people white in exchange for large sums of cash) is nothing short of a miracle in the minds of those who adore the color white. What I had not talked about (at all) is the opposite of that. Those who claim 'kaloi holo jogoter alo' is probably just as freaky as the White wannabes, wouldn't you say? While it's perfectly normal to have a preference, I see no reason why we must add reason and logic to it. It's like love. Do we decide to love someone? Or does it happen on its own and then we add reason and logic to it? I believe it's the latter. Why else do we so often fall for the wrong people? If logic had anything to do with it, we probably wouldn't have. The natural outcome of a decision based on reason is supposed to be a positive one, they tell us. I doubt they're completely wrong.

Another thing I've been thinking about lately (not too hard, don't worry): do we all have a 'type' of person we fall in love with? This guy I know have dated a lot of horizontally gifted women - not to mean they're not attractive, because they are, but they all had this one characteristic in common. Maybe there were others, but I don't know them well enough to spot it. So would it be safe to assume that he only likes this one type of women? Or is it all a coincidence? I don't think I'll ever know. My own experience with the opposite gender tells me that there is no 'type' but I never actively selected the people I dated - I've said yes/no to people who approached me. So my experience would show that I have not attracted the same types of people but it says nothing about what my type is. And hence the question, do I have a type?

So my question is: do YOU have a type?

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Suicidal at Niagara and other stories

Jackpot News, March 12: In an exclusive interview with WTF, the unidentified man who jumped into the Niagara Falls claims that it was NOT a suicide attempt, he was merely practicing for the triathlon that he will be competing in April. Does the triathlon involve jumping into a water fall? No, but it requires a 5mile swim which begins with a swift dive from a 10m diving board, we found out. This man from Ontario county claim that the Niagara Falls is the closest swimming pool to his house. So was this his first attempt? How did he manage to spend 45 minutes in the near freezing water while managing to avoid the whirlpool that is the Niagara? "Yoga", he said. So Yoga it is.

Relatedly, an unidentified man who jumped into the Dhanmondi Lake too claims that it was NOT a suicide attempt. What else would he be doing in a water body in which even fishes die, you ask? He claims, he was taking a bath. However, he was retrieved from the lake by a group of slum kids who pulled him out thinking that he was a big fish. We at WTF are wondering if Danny Boyle would be interested in that story. Go Dan! Here's another chance at the Oscars!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

blocked

Is my nose. Well, no. I don't know why I just wrote that. It's actually my mind. Perhaps it's the exhilaration of writing in another blog, which is actually someone else's. It's almost like writing personal emails from someone else's email account, but still using my own name. It's like the pleasure of having access of someone else's private information, which is often by surreptitious means, but this one's legit so it's not as much fun (c'mon admit it, reading other people's mail is fun. Or I'm just a closet voyeur) but it still feels kind of weird. Because when it's a surreptitious act, you at least pretend that you haven't done it - even to yourself, sometimes. But when it's legit, I guess you just don't know what to feel, and can't process what you're feeling.

And after taking pot shots at people who write just for the sake of writing, or who just write descriptions without interpretive comments, or even just about themselves I'm not doing such a great job myself. And I am pretty much just writing about myself. Does that make me a closet hypocrit? Well, not closet anymore since this is a public forum.

If you've read Joruri Khobor at all, you'll know that Tokai (i.e. I) was evacuated. Thank you, Shakib Bhai for providing me with temporary shelter. Much obliged, I am. Because there are tons of shredded paper on the streets, especially near Hawa Bhobon, I am seriously busy trying to collect all I can (read hoard), but I will need a refuge at the end of the day and this porch will work very well, thank you. Hopefully, even better than the garbage bin in which I used to live. Because Tokais don't sign contracts, no deals have been signed. So I'm here till I have to evacuate again.

Monday, March 9, 2009

padams, jimmy padams

This one's for the cricket fans. And not just any cricket fans, but the ones who actually follow the game in its longer format aka Test Match Cricket. I'm a HUGE cricket fan. Those who know me know this well. The one song of my band that gets regular radio play is "Cholo Bangladesh" which i was inspired to compose when Bangladesh beat Pakistan in the 1999 Cricket World Cup. 

I was introduced to the world of cricket pretty late in my life. I was 20, in my 2nd year of college, and i had a lot of free time on my hands as all my friends had gone to study abroad. I decided to invest a lot of my free time in watching cricket. It started with the 1996 world cup, which was spectacular for the wonderful aggressive cricket played by Sri Lanka, and then in 1998 i started playing the game myself. I had left the stage behind where i could get coaching and play any serious league so i settled for playing with my cousins and my new friends in Bangladesh. 

Pretty soon we had a healthy cricketing life. Every weekend we were at the field batting and bowling. It didn't matter that i couldn't bat or bowl, what mattered was that i gave it my all. And slowly and surely, i started learning the art of the game. I was never one of those dashing batsmen. I think there are only 3 innings (test and 1-day combined) when i successfully flashed my blade. Otherwise i was the slow and steady type. Very little talent but lots of heart. And so i always loved following the players in international cricket who were also great strugglers. And Jimmy Adams, left-handed batsman and former Captain of the West Indies, struggled with the best of them. 

The recent Test series between England And West Indies has degenerated into a run fest on flat and insipid wickets. A far cry from the bouncy and hard pitches of the West Indies of old. But the West Indies team boasts the great Shivnarine Chanderpaul and the newcomer Brian Nash, whose playing styles suited the flat pitches perfectly. Brian Nash has the distinction of being a struggler and he's the only white player in the WI team. Being a minority, he immediately got my attention. And then i saw him struggle and i fell in love with him. Shiv Chanderpaul is not really a struggler. He has all the shots in the book, some which are not, and yet he has this slow and plodding playing style in test matches that makes it look like he is struggling to find runs. All this struggle reminded me of Jimmy Adams and one particular innings Jimmy played against Pakistan when he was captain. 

Jimmy was never a great talent. He was a hard worker. He scored a lot of runs when he originally debuted but soon lost his form and was dropped. But then WI lost all its talent and that created an opportunity for Adams to come back. Come back he did, and after Lara gave up his captaincy he took over. We knew he was not the savior of WI cricket. He knew it too. But i always felt he had a lot of heart and i thought at that moment in time he was the best man for the job. So i wholeheartedly supported his captaincy, through all the defeats and the few victories he managed. And the one moment i will always remember was his celebration after he scored a hard-fought 50 against Pakistan in a test in WI. 

I don't remember details of that match. All i remember is that Wavel Hinds batted magnificently and WI won the series 1-0. All the pitches were flat because they were scared of akram and akhter. Plus Pakistan had really good spinners as well. And WI had no one. So flat track it was. But even so, Akram and Akhter bowled with fire and Adams struggled. Really struggled. And managed to score a 50 in one of the matches. He took off his helmet and ran around the pitch as if he had scored a triple century. He had a huge grin on his face and he was the happiest man alive at that moment. That moment was was burned into my memory and also into the memory of my friends who watched it. And today i discovered it was a moment that others noted as well. For today i brought up the Adams 50 run celebration and this junior friend of mine immediately said "the one against Pakistan" and then we both burst out laughing. 

Well i hope you remember that particular moment, you who are reading this. It was a moment that captured the innocent happiness of a man who fought and struggled hard all his life to do what he loves doing. and in that moment of triumph, it didn't matter that it was a minor milestone. All that mattered was that he had reached a milestone and he was happy for himself and his team that his effort had paid off. 

At the end of the day, that's all that matters. So here's to you Jimmy Adams! We remember you fondly!

Respect

25th February 2009 -- as brutal and as important a date as any other in our short and bloody history. BDR men going rogue, Army on the warpath, the civilian government caught flatfooted in the worst form of crisis. A lot has been said about all this, a lot has been written. But a lot is still left to be said. The investigation is going on, the head culprits still at large. The role of NSI and DGFI and other intelligence bodies in the nation still murky. Everything is murky. Nothing is clear. Everything is a shade of gray. 

Or is it?

One thing does stand out from that awful awful day. One thing and one thing only. The discipline and strength of character of the Army. The nation has already done the official mourning. But i agree with Film Director Faruqui who has said that the entire nation owes an apology to the army for thinking ill of them on the 25th. The media influenced the entire country to believe that the army men treated the BDR men badly, so badly that they couldn't take it anymore. And as usual, we immediately felt for the underdogs. It wasn't until 2 days later when all the dead bodies started floating up when we all realized the extent of the treachery, the butchery and the horror perpetrated by the BDR. 

And so we have the Hasina tapes on the Internet. Where the army shouts at our PM and accuses her. I thought they were surprisingly well controlled. And i thought Hasina handled herself rather well. Because the army had every reason to feel aggrieved. While the government tried to reach a solution that would entail minimum bloodshed, the BDR men went on a killing spree. Their victims - the army officers stationed inside the camp. And yet, and yet the army maintained its discipline. They respected the will of the elected government. They gave meaning to honor and sacrifice. 

In the end, their honor and sacrifice will not bring back the dead. Will not console the families of the dead. will not lessen their feeling of guilt. Guilt at standing by and doing nothing while their brothers were being slaughtered. But that was the need of the hour. That was the choice, the dreaded decision, the devil's alternative. For the nation to survive, the army sacrificed their own. 

And in the process earned a nation's undying respect. 

(picture copyright 300)

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Women's Day Celebrations by Bangladesh Islamic Party

March 8, BDNEWS420: The Bangladesh Islamic Party celebrated International Women's Day today, March 8, as the number of women on the streets reduced due to the recent mutiny that killed many Army personnel and some civilians.

'This is an achievement that we are proud of. Keeping the women off the streets is the first crucial step in bringing law and order to this nation of ours,' said spokesperson Mirza Alim.

When reminded that it was not their credit, and it was in fact an indication of the lack of law and order in the country, Alim said, 'Do not talk about what you do not know. Women are the cause of all problems in this world. If we did not have women police guarding the intersection of Satmasjid Road and Dhanmondi Road 27, we would not have had this crisis upon us. Please do not make comments that can destabilize our country for which we have fought for for the last few years.'

We at WTF, happy that Mr. Alim thought that we were strong enough to destabilize the country, left him alone as he pretended to count the tasbih. We, of course, don't know what exactly he was counting.

( Mirza Alim, on the account that photographs are not halal, refused to let our cameraman in. He even threatened to break his camera if he tried to take a picture. We wanted to do a sketch, but then decided against it. He's not much to look at, so why bother?)

A Red Box with a Blue Ribbon

That is what I got on Valentine's Day this year. The box was painted red. With a permanent marker (the pungent smell of a marker is probably as permanent as the ink). And the blue ribbon was a strip of cloth torn out of something else. I didn't want to dwell on what it could be. Letting my imagination run wild is often a bad idea. Especially since I live on my own. With a window that overlooks midnight blue from 6pm onwards. Not that I mind the color, I think it's lovely. In fact I look great in the almost midnight blue sweater that a friend gave to me last week. I love her to bits. And her little baby is a little pillow with the most adorable chubby cheeks. (Note: I did not say the most adorable chubby cheeks EVER, like some people invariably does).

Getting back to the box, it didn't have a name tag, nor was I completely sure it was intended for me. But it was left in front of my door. What else could I do but take it, right? I thought so too. And when I opened the box, I realized two things: 1) that I really shouldn't have opened it, and 2) it was intended for me.







And that is how the short story In my shoes jumps into the narration of a small but significant aspect of a girl's predicament about life and men. The things she finds in that box takes her back to different parts of her personal history that had once appeared to be unrelated and unimportant. The objects in the box, when placed together, reveal how they are all tied together.

(In my shoes is still in its editing stages, but the author allowed us a sneak preview!)